In this blog, I write a lot about the struggles I had with not knowing how God wanted me to mother. Frequently, I found myself blaming Him for the confusion I was in and asking Him why He had burdened me with standards I could not reach. Nothing could have been farther from the truth! Our God is "not the author of confusion" (1 Corinthians 14:33) and His "burden is light" (Matthew 11:25-30). Certainly, death to flesh is required, and death is never pleasant. But, in His strength, His will is not a burden that weighs us down. I have since come to know our God as a gentle Shepherd Who desires for us to lead our little ones in gentleness, as well. Apart from the Spirit's work in me, I have never been known as a gentle person. My father frequently referred to me throughout childhood as "a bull in a china shop" and it was a fitting title. Unfortunately, my rough way carried over into my mothering (There is a reason my kids hate getting their noses wiped!), and my lack of gentleness was only intensified by my confusion and the heavy weight of rules I had burdened myself with that God had not given. How I am urged to grow in this fruit of the Spirit the more I learn about the gentleness of our Savior.
He is a Victorious King, yes!, but a Gentle Shepherd, too.
My official "mommy verse" is Isaiah 40:11 which says,
Gently Led to Gently Lead
I'll never be a perfect mom,
But You, O Lord, are perfect in me.
I would recommend reading the main blog posts first (simply by scrolling down) before the pages (highlighted in red at the top next to "Home"). The posts mainly detail my "soap box" message, while the pages are more of an encouragement stemming from it.
“I’ll never be a perfect writer, but You, O Lord, are perfect in me.
Above all of my faults and flaws, may it be Your Truth that they read…”